Hi everyone this is me trying to provoke the inner blogger that I have within. Jk 😛 , I just wanted to start writing more often. If you are a person who does not like to read long essays I suggest you to just click the back button and do something else cause this is going to be long. Looking back, it has definitely been a tough year. It has been an emotional rollercoaster for me and also my family. So much to say, so much to feel and so much to thank 🙇
New Year was the time where I traveled back to my Uni after my mid-sem break. Thaipusam came after hand when my sister decided to come over to my Uni and we went to Batu Caves for the first time for Thaipusam. I am a person who does not like crowded place😷 nop I don't. As for me, that was the only minus point la besides that I really had a good time there observing people from everywhere coming to a place to fulfill their prayers. It was my first time there during Thaipusam.
February was the most devastating month. I lost my grandmum on the 8th. It took me so long to even digest the fact that she was no longer here with us because my grandfather was quite ill compared to her, he is the one who got admitted to hospital often but god is the great planner.
The bitter truth is that it takes a funeral to gather people and that is exactly what I witnessed. Always appreciate everyone and don't take people for granted because life is too short and you'd never know when is someone's last day 😩. That was also the time where I traveled a lot going back and forth from Tanjung Malim to Jb because of the Prayers. March was just an ordinary month I had my finals and that was the period of time where I got close to my friends that I am with now. To be honest, I never thought that all that people would mean so much to me at that moment. We all became so close that we started to go out together often, do things together. It's just so nice to have a bunch of people to rely on. Staying away from home, friends are our only consolation and I'm glad to meet all these people 💕. We planned our first planning out..
We went to lockdown and just roam in Times Square for the rest of the day. The rest of the month was semester break. Upon entering the new semester was my brother's birthday 😀. Both my sister's birthday came after hand. The same usual stories continued. I attended holi fest for the first time in my Uni. I was expecting like some balam pichkari song scene to be happening there, but it was just song, dance and people throwing coloured powder all over. Nevertheless, it was just good that we really enjoyed ourselves.
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| All clean and white before starting |
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| I totally looked like shit after everything. |
So something important happened in July. We went hiking. Wasn't the whole team but still quite a number of us went. The last time I went hiking was during form 4 and it has been long. We went Bukit Gasing and the hike was not so difficult it was all ok.
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| btw that is rotan in viki's hand. Yes, he was using that to beat me all the way. |
The one thing that I learned through this hike is that to overcome my fears. I have a major fear of heights and upon reaching the top everyone took turn and took pictures on the peak where we will have to stand on a wall. I kept on saying no and then I was convinced. Mid of July Prasannaa's birthday came, we had a mini celebration thingy at the car park and the birthday girl insisted to belanja us all dinner that night.
So I went hiking for the second time. This time around it's with the boys and I can say that it is way different. One thing these fellas are fast and they have the energy to continue hiking. The hike was pretty hard compared to the previous one. Here's the catch, I really thought I couldn't make it because Bukit Kutu is around 1090 meters which is not easy for a beginner like me but somehow I made it. This is the thing about life always surprise yourself by doing things that you thought you couldn't. Even some of my friends were afraid that I couldn't make it but yeay I made it 😁 Sometimes it's the little push that you need, he was constantly saying to me that I can do this and so did the boys. In the end, it was all worth it. The view was surreal. I'm not kidding I almost teared it was so beautiful from up there. I began to feel dizzy and I started to walk sideways. If not for raswin to hold me that day I really would have died lol.
So the adventure continued. We went again to the same place but this time to the waterfalls don't ask me why it was such a last minute plan. It wasn't even a weekend it was a weekday and somehow everyone didn't have class that afternoon. I went to the waterfalls after so long and it was also fun this time around.
Our mid-semester break came after that so I decided to follow Prasannaa to her Place in Penang for that one week. Her parents are the sweetest they took care of me like their own, we went to a few places there like Penang Hill, Batu Ferringhi, the temple there.
and I also went to Kedah where her grandparents are there. I had a good time there. Another thing that I liked the most is that I got to play with the kids there for that one week because prasanaa's mom is babysitting kids and most importantly I ate like nobody's business. I had a great trip overall. So my favourite month of the year came, OCTOBER. The beginning of the month was my Finals and I went back home after that. The whole month went basically just for the Deepavali prep. Knowing the fact that people remember my birthday itself made me so happy like the entire day is made. I was already so happy with all the love that my friends gave they were like posting my pictures all over (including all my ugly pics). How thoughtful of them.
Btw the last wish of the day was the most special one 💙. I thought it was all over. Nope I was wrong. I am just overwhelmed by the amount of love that is being given. Every year it has only been my family and now these people, I was just so contended.
So you're thinking it is over, not yet ...yes NOT YET. Since my birthday and Raswin's was during the semester break our friends wanted to make it up for us and we went to Rawang and our ceremony happened there 😂.
Sometimes I will always question myself "how did I get so lucky ?" 😇. Speaking of gifts, I received something very special this year. It wasn't a birthday gift but it is just so important to me. It was a bracelet. There is something extremely special about it. Of all the things i have received, this is the one that is very close to my heart . No gifts can ever come close to this 😇
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Deepavali came as usual. My sister wasn't home this time around, she was busy with her final semester and thesis. Temple that morning and Deepavali breakfast. Went to my best friend's house. Safe to say the only friend I have in Jb lol.
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| one and only companion every year |
November pass by and so did december. Two events happened at my Uni and one of it was deepavali night. Our last deepavali night of the diploma days. We had so much of fun, as usual. I finally got to wear the Saree that my brother gave me earlier this year. 😊😊.
Mid sem break came and anne convinced me to follow him back to Teluk Intan. I honestly felt like one day wasn't enough. Everyone there are just so nice. We went for a movie came back went for dinner and came back again. So we had conversations that night. Simple conversations yet everlasting memories 💕 How I wished I was there longer. I really felt home.
In the blink of an eye, the year ended. Overall it has been both a bad and a great year. This year I lost a lot, I gained a lot and I learned a lot. I developed habits that I never thought I'd be doing. I met amazing and genuine friends whom I can always count on. I am also very thankful for certain things. I have this habit of bottling up everything to myself. For the longest time, I only keep things to myself. For the first time, I'm just so comfortable telling and actually talking things out. Knowing the fact that I don't have to go through my struggles alone after this makes me feel so good about myself. Forever grateful for this one🙏. I've been pushing myself very hard lately to face my anxiety and fears. Challenging myself in doing things that I couldn't do before this. Although I haven't reflected on it too much yet this has been one of the best years I've had in a long time.
To those of you who entered in my life and made it a meaningful one thank you very much and to those of you who walked away sorry *choose to walk away thank you too for the lesson it has definitely taught myself my worth. I met so many people this year and also I met people whom I never want to lose forever. To my people ( you know who you are) thank you so much for always sticking by my side through thick and thin (regardless of how annoying I am 😛) To longer Friday nights and shorter Monday mornings, Happy New Year and have a blessed year everybaddyyyy 🌈✨
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