Nope, i have not developed a rare condition or a disease. It's a term used to describe the complete development of your brain and it doesn't take place until you are 25. It's at the age of 25 that the last areas of your brain mature. I've done my research, google mainly and discovered that this development has significantly changed one's decision making, personality, behaviour and the way we perceive things. Now that i am a few months away from turning 25, it makes so much sense because these are the areas that I have experienced changes in.
My early 20s and my mid 20s definitely are different and it feels crazy to even think that I've reached that age. I just feel like everything started to calm down. My perception and the way i perceive things changed entirely. I am able to make decisions much more calmly and pay attention to all the aspects before jumping into conclusion. The things that used to annoy or irritate me don't anymore and i just don't give much energy to people or matters to ruin my mood. I always believed that i had to mature faster in life because of the things i go through but this one just feels different like I've started to focus on the bigger things in life. I begin to accept things for what it is and that god is the great planner. I'm convinced that if something is slipping off my fingers even after trying multiple times with all my might, then it is probably not meant for me. If something is truly meant for me then it will reach me somehow.
I thought i'd already heard the best compliment given to me until a friend of mine recently told me that my dark circles and eyebags have improved and i look much better. For a person who has struggled with sleep for a few years now, it felt so good to hear. I used to overthink literally about anything and everything and that robbed my peace and my sleep. I worry and stress about matters that i don't even have a control on and it truly drained me. It is so heavy to carry forward with all the baggage that comes from worrying. Not gonna lie, letting go of them were some of the toughest work that i had to do for myself. My whole life i have always been half hearted in the things i do because i always worry what if things don't turn out the way i imagined it. Now i'm just living for the things that happens in the present and accept things for what it is. Emotionally i was a mess, in fact i still am but my worry is only towards the things that are in reach of my control. I feel like a new person, i see the future differently and it is truly a humbling experience.
I finally am able to fathom the idea that if someone is mistreating me or says bad things about me, it is just a reflection of them and has nothing to do with me or the person i am. I grossly overestimated my place in people's life. Constant sacrifices in the name of relationship and friendship is just going to result in resentment. After all, at a gunpoint you would choose to save yourself first. I ain't gonna water relationships that do not reciprocate anymore. People's priorities changes. If you don't feel seen with a person or a group of people it is ok to evolve. Nobody owes absolutely any explanation to anyone. If that makes you happy without the cost of putting another person down then go ahead. At the end of the day you are for yourself and the time you spend with yourself is much more important than anything else. I just feel like everything that's happening in life makes so much sense now.
I honestly don’t know if having a good tolerance towards pain is one of the things you experience through this development or not but i can truly tell that my pain tolerance just got better on another level. I hit my toe nail against the door and went about with work like i normally would for a week, visited the doctors cause the swelling won’t stop only to find out that i fractured my bone and the bones have joint again. I had zero idea about it.
To the teeny tiny circle around me who have seen me progress over these years, whose families took me like their own. Given me genuine criticism with no hatred and jealousy for the sole intention to see me win in life. Fill my tummy with food that tastes like a hug. If you know me then you know i have a rather poor relationship with food. Celebrating all my finished meals like a victory. I got lucky, big time.
Food prepared and served with utmost love.
I can never repay this kind of kindness, ever.
God if you’re watching this please keep all these people and their families safe and happy.
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